“Look at your feet. You are standing in the sky. When we think of the sky, we tend to look up, but the sky actually begins at the earth. We walk through it, yell into it, rake leaves, wash the dog, and drive cars in it. We breathe it deep within us. With every breath, we inhale millions of molecules of sky, heat them briefly, and then exhale them back into the world.”
It's been a busy week. I've been hanging out in the sky. Go get some!
“Sometimes I can hear my bones straining under the weight of all the lives I’m not living.”
I read that quote last week and it said exactly what I've been feeling. I'm struggling with it a little.
Sometimes I think I must feel more than most people. Maybe I'm very soft and fleshy on the inside or something. Perhaps the inside of me is cavernous- with an enormous capacity to love. Either way, I just want more. I feel greedy for life, and it makes me feel different. Last week, in a deep conversation with my brother, he kindly pointed out the difference between he and I by saying I was "dreamy" (in a "you've-got-your-head-in-the-clouds" sort of way). He knows me well.
I abhor complacency. I'm not interested in run-of-the-mill. Monotony feels like a slow and painful death.
I want to ski on all of the sunny winter days, I want to have a picnic in a different place every Sunday. I want to write a book(s) about birth, and ballet, and the different ways to cook an egg. I want photograph all of the damp green places in Ireland. I want to marvel at every sunset, every snowflake, every kiss, every exhale!
And yet... I am here. I am in my life. There are dishes to be done, noses to wipe, relationships to work on, groceries to be bought, and Mondays every week.
I feel thankful, I do. But I also feel my bones strain.
I haven't reconciled this divide yet. I know there has to be a balance between the magnificent and the mundane. Still searching...
I'll share more as I discover it along the way.
Thank you for all your lovely comments this week. I love hearing from you- I wish you'd say "hi" more often!
The random number generator picked #8. So Brittany is the winner! Congratulations. Use the "email me" link under my picture to send me your address and I'll get this cheery little package out to you right a way!
Here are a few pictures from my outdoor adventures this week. We've been enjoying some beautiful blue skies! Spring is right around the corner. I can feel it.“Everyone should have themselves regularly overwhelmed by Nature.”