From the desk of...

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This is what my office looks like today:

It's amazing how time flies when you're working on something that you're passionate about. I finally made myself go ALL THE WAY upstairs just now to make breakfast. (It's noon.) 

The extra free time that I've recently been granted has allowed me to put some some much-needed love into rebranding, reorganizing, and very soon reintroducing my natural birth classes and workshops. I'm giddy!

It's hardly work if you ask me. Making things look pretty, writing about healthy mamas and happy babies, thinking about the best kind of support and encouragement needed for women and their amazingly powerful and creative bodies... ahhhh! I can't wait to show you. 

Back to the grindstone... ;)

Outside/Inside

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First, thank you so much for all your love and encouragement yesterday. Sometimes it feels a little bit scary to hit that "publish" button. You guys really are the best. I appreciate the space that you have held open for me. 

Second, um it's cold out. I am getting reacquainted with winter after having lived out of the area for the last 2 years. Brrr. We are like in the mountains here. For real. Every day more snow. I'm getting pretty awesome at shifting into 4x4 on the fly these days, so that's fun. 

It does take one part momentum and one part determination to put yourself out in elements like these...

but it's ALWAYS worth it.

 Outside: 28 degrees / Inside: 98.6 degrees.

Outside: Still, Quiet, Dry, Cold, Gray, Dark.

Inside: Burning muscles (they're in there somewhere I can feel them), Pounding heart, Warm breath, Rosy Cheeks.

The outside/inside contrast is good. Standing outside on a day like today, it becomes more evident that inside of me is indeed a soft golden glow, an invincible summer, heat, energy, and a whole heckuva lot of love. 

And that feels very alive. 

 

 

 

It's time.

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There's a time for everything don't you think?

There's a time to pull back, and to withdraw; to regroup, refocus, and gather strength. 

There's a time to sit in quiet examination of yourself, to learn how to be alone, and see how possible it is to love hanging out with you.

There's a time to narrow your circle and to be choosy about how you spend your energy. There's a time when it feels more honoring to the whole entire world if you just keep your mouth shut.

There are times in your life when it feels appropriate not to fear the death of certain parts of yourself, but to willingly accept dormancy knowing that there WILL be a time somewhere in the not-too-distant future when you will feel able to unearth the parts of yourself that were resting.  

The last year and a half has been a space of time like that for me. (Then again, I'm an introvert and this comes almost too easily. Just ask my kids who know where to find me at the end of most days. Alone, in the bath.) As natural and as necessary as it is for me to quietly process thoughts and events... It has, for the most part been a very conscious choice for me to be absent from this space. 

If I were to give each year some descriptive words in hindsight, here's how that would go:

2012- Recognizing

2013- Re-prioritizing

2014- Restructuring

2015- Retreating

and looking forward to 2016? REBIRTH  or RECLAIMING

I'm ready to start writing again, and I feel really excited about that. Thanks for being gentle with me all the while. Happy New Year and Good Morning if you're just "waking up".